Over the weekend, Roman and I went with my parents to the movie theater to see Son of God. We have already watched “The Bible” series on TV, and much of the Son of God came from that series, but we wanted to show our support to the creators of the film and watch something wholesome (for a change) as well. The movie was excellent, as I knew it would be. And I cried just as hard as I knew I would.
One thing that struck me in the movie, as well as the Bible series itself, was how many times the phrase “trust in God” was repeated. Throughout the Bible series, it seemed like every major character in every episode repeated the phrase at least once. And I know that I heard the phrase repeated at least twice in Son of God.
Trust in God.
Why is that so hard sometimes? It feels like I wrestle almost every day with trust. It was so easy for me to watch the movie and repeat over and over in my heart “Lord, I trust You.” But it wasn’t long after I left the theater that those feelings of love and trust slowly started to fade. It is SO difficult for me to keep those thoughts of fear and doubt at bay and place my full trust in Christ. I feel like I have walked around this mountain for ages…taking three steps forward and two steps backward, barely making any progress at all.
Currently, Roman and I are facing a major life event…and even as I write this post, my heart is filled with doubt, fear and anxiety. God has done so many things and spoken so many times to us, showing us the way we should go. And yet, we are still here. Still not knowing what the whole pictures looks like. Still stressing about the pieces of the puzzle that we can’t see right now. This is part of being in the flesh. This is part of having an earthly point of view, and not an eternal point of view. It is also part of having an enemy that loves to tear apart what God is doing in our lives. This is the faith walk. Where doubt and fear collide with faith and trust and you have to make a conscious decision: faith or fear?
What’s the best way to renew your hope and trust in God? Scripture. When Jesus Himself was tempted by the enemy, He combatted him with God’s Word. If Jesus needed the Word of God to combat temptation, how much more so do I need it? The only peace and rest that we will ever have on this side of eternity will always come from the Lord and His Word. So for today, these are the Scriptures that I am doing my best to meditate on:
“But for You, O Lord, do I wait; it is You, O Lord my God, who will answer.” ~Psalm 38:15
“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You.” ~Psalm 39:7
“I waited patiently for the Lord; He inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the Lord. Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not turn to the proud, to those who go astray after a lie!” ~Psalm 40:1-4
“As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord takes thought for me. You are my help and my deliverer; do not delay, O my God!” ~Psalm 40:17
“As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God? My tears have been my food day and night, while they say to me all the day long, ‘Where is your God?’ These things I remember, as I pour out my soul: how I would go with the throng and lead them in procession to the house of God with glad shouts and songs of praise, a multitude keeping festival. Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God.” ~Psalm 42:1-5
“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord if your shade on your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all evil; He will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.” ~Psalm 121
“Jesus said to him, ‘Have you believed because you have seen Me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.’” ~John 20:29
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” ~Matthew 6:25-34
In review of my life, I truly believe that this is the biggest “faith test” I have ever had to endure. I know that this temporary trial is nothing more than a path I must walk in order to strengthen my faith and trust in Christ. I know how important it is that I become victorious over my trust issues with God. And so today, I am keeping my thoughts captive on these verses and not allowing the enemy to destroy the new work that God is doing in my life.
I WILL trust in God!!
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” ~Jeremiah 29:11