Monday, June 2, 2014
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Monday, May 26, 2014
Guess Whose Birthday It Is???
In the middle of
all this moving and unpacking business, I completely forgot….Life with the Casterlines
turned two years old this month!
I can’t believe
it’s been two years since I wrote this post on May 2nd. My first two sentences on the first ever post? “Well this is
the first of hopefully many blog posts. I can't help but admit that I feel a
little bit like a dumb-dumb for even having a blog.”
-We moved into a nice big house in our hometown.
-We launched a second blog, Faith, Marriage & Family.
-We walked through a depressing time of infertility.
-We watched as God pieced together a new vision for our family.
-We packed up and moved to Columbus with a promise of a new job for Roman.
-We saw this promise fulfilled….Roman starts his new job next week!
It seems like this a trend though, because I also forgot the blog’s birthdaylast year.
Yea, good thing blogs don’t have feelings. Maybe I’ll do better when it
turns three years old?
Ha! Hilarious.
Two years and twenty-six days later and the blog is still growing in
readership numbers. So perhaps I wasn’t such a dumb-dumb after all!
Things have definitely changed in our lives over the past two years
though…..
-We graduated college. -We moved into a nice big house in our hometown.
-We launched a second blog, Faith, Marriage & Family.
-We walked through a depressing time of infertility.
-We watched as God pieced together a new vision for our family.
-We packed up and moved to Columbus with a promise of a new job for Roman.
-We saw this promise fulfilled….Roman starts his new job next week!
It has definitely been a roller-coaster of a ride, but I am so glad we
have shared it with you guys. Y’all have been so sweet to us over the last two
years. I can’t count how many comments on this blog or on Facebook we have
received that show your support and prayers for us. I have treasured your sweet
words of encouragement and appreciation for what has been written here. And I’m
so glad that God has used this blog to work in some of your lives as well!
I’m really excited about all that God has done and all that God will do
through our little slice of the Internet. We are working on some special ideas
to spread our reach with this blog, so stay tuned!
Really though, I can’t thank all of you enough for your support over
these last two years. There was a time where I really considered not writing at
all, but your encouragement got me through that period and motivated me to keep
going. Life with the Casterlines wouldn’t be what it is today without our
readers! So eat yourself a birthday
cupcake and we can celebrate together ;)
Seriously though, cupcakes are awesome. Go eat one.
“Two are better than one, because they
have a good return for their work: If one falls downs, his friend can help him
up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!” ~Ecclesiastes
4:9-10
Thursday, May 22, 2014
An Uphill Battle
The air was a
little bit chilly last Sunday morning as I stepped out of my front door,
running shoes on and hair pulled into a messy ponytail. I did a couple of
jumping jacks and then started off down my street….or I should say up my street since my house is at the
bottom of a hill. I did my two-mile jog in the early morning before church,
before my brain could finish waking up and realize what I was doing. The
neighborhood was still quiet and the sky still overcast as I labored along with
my slow steps and struggling breaths.
Your lungs may be heavy and your legs burning from trying to get up that hill. You may want to quit and just go back to where you came from…..to what is familiar and comfortable. But the refining of our souls does not result from comfortable places. Our hearts are put in shape by our Father, who leads us through these hard training sessions with love and patience. He’s not doing it out of cruelty, He’s doing it because He loves us and He has something better for us at the finish line.
I wanted to
quit.
I’m not used to
being out of shape. I’m not used to running up and down steep hills. I hate
that burning feeling in my legs as I force them to keep moving. I hate that
heaviness in my chest as my lungs push for more oxygen.
I wanted to
quit, but I didn’t.
I ran exactly
2.02 miles that day in exactly eighteen minutes and fourteen seconds. Terrible
time compared to my previous high school running records, but I ran the whole
thing and I didn’t stop and I didn’t die.
I can’t help but
compare my life to my run last weekend.
Right now I feel
like I’m just pushing to get up the hill. Everything is hard. Our finances are
hard. Finding a new church is hard. Living in a big city where you don’t really
know anyone is hard. Finding a store you can buy cat food from is hard.
Learning a new job is hard. Being away from our family and friends that we hold
so dear is hard.
This week, I’ve
wanted to quit. My heart ached all day yesterday as I thought about all I had
lost. Eating lunch with my parents every Thursday. My big house with the pretty
pond outside. Leading worship at the
best church in. the. world. Hanging out with our friends. Knowing how to get to
where I need to go without looking it up on GPS. My work buddies and our silly
conversations. Knowing how to do my job and knowing that I was good at it.
Walking into Wal-Mart and seeing familiar faces every day. I never actually
cried, but I could feel the weight of it all and my body is just so tired.
I know it’s too
soon. We’ve only lived here for just over a month. It will take longer than
that for us to start feeling settled…..for this strange new place to feel like
home. What is it? Six months, they say before you feel settled? Yesterday, six
months felt like a long way away…..just like two miles felt like a long way to
run on Sunday.
Today, God has
given me strength and peace in the midst of this uphill journey. It has been an
anointed day, and it isn’t even lunch time yet. And oh, how thankful I am for
His patience and care for me! He really is a good God, you know?
First, I ran
across this Scripture in one of my e-mail devotions I receive:
“Lift up your tired hands, then, and strengthen your trembling knees! Keep walking on straight paths… Guard against turning back from the grace of God….” Hebrews 12:12-13, 15 (TEV)
Then I came
across this blog post which talks about making Jesus your top priority:
“It was there, in His redemptive grace and His increasing glory, that I realized my greatest plea is that Jesus, above any writing project or to-do list or work task, wouldn’t be my afterthought.” –Katy, When Jesus is my Afterthought
Finally, I saw
this post on my Twitter feed which talks about moving and why we have to trust
God:
“I knew that God saw the big picture and had a plan. He knew the people that I needed to be near to help and those who needed to be close to me to help me. He hadn’t chosen these assignments with a random selection program. He had thought about it and strategically placed us each time.” –Katie, Seating Chart
Your lungs may be heavy and your legs burning from trying to get up that hill. You may want to quit and just go back to where you came from…..to what is familiar and comfortable. But the refining of our souls does not result from comfortable places. Our hearts are put in shape by our Father, who leads us through these hard training sessions with love and patience. He’s not doing it out of cruelty, He’s doing it because He loves us and He has something better for us at the finish line.
So keep pushing
through. Keep forcing those feet forward. Dig deep into the Word and find
comfort in His promises. Keep holding onto your Daddy and asking Him for
strength and comfort. He’s running the race, right there with us.
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by
such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and
the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race
marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of
faith. For the joy set before Him He endured the cross, scorning its shame, and
sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider Him who endured such
opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”
~Hebrews 12:1-3
Monday, May 19, 2014
Who is this Jesus, Really?
Last week I
wrote a post directed to the Church. When I posted the link on Facebook, I made
a promise to those who don’t follow Christ to write a follow-up post this week
centered on who Jesus really is.
I think much of
the problem today (specifically in America) is we have created this false Jesus
in our minds. He’s hip and cool and loves to make everyone happy and give them
things. Trouble is, he’s not the real deal. This false Jesus is what we cling
to in order to make ourselves feel better. “He says not to judge!” we yell as
we point to a cardboard cutout of a man with long-hair and pretty brown eyes holding
up a peace sign with a rainbow in the background.
No, the real Jesus
is many things, but one thing He is not is apathetic towards sin. After all, He
suffered the worst torture that ever has been and ever will be to free us from
sin. So why would He be okay with us living in it? Short answer: He wouldn’t.
He isn’t. He won’t ever be.
I’m going to try
and keep this simple and to the point, but I can’t make any promises. After
all, the pursuit of Christ is a lifelong journey and I think I’m just a few
steps in to discovering the greatness of who He is.
Before you check
out on me, I want to make one thing clear: Jesus does love you.
You who has
grown up in a broken home and walked a lonely path of depression. You who loves
the taste and smell of alcohol a bit too much. You who has struggled for years
with drug addiction. You who has stolen. You who has lied. He loves you.
Dearly. His heart aches for you to turn to Him and allow Him to tear down the
walls of sin that have taken residence in your soul. He wants to set you free!
I think this is
where the disconnect occurs. We love to hear that Jesus loves us! We long to be
accepted by someone and loved for who we are. Jesus loves us for who we are, but He does not love what we do when we are still in bondage
to sin. We can dance and sing for joy at the fact that Jesus loves us, but if
we never turn from our sin and strive to live in His holiness, then the day
will come when our bodies will die
and we will spend an eternity in
hell. We must be purchased by His
blood in order for our souls to be redeemed. And let me be perfectly clear:
being purchased by His blood will actually cost
us something.
Christians love
to throw out the phrase: “Accept the free gift of salvation! Just say this
prayer…..” We do you an injustice when we say that and nothing else. Because
although the price has already been paid for our salvation, saying the prayer
and living it out your salvation will
mean that you have to make sacrifices. I can’t say what those sacrifices will
look like for you specifically, because I do not know you. I can only say this:
following Christ means that we lay down whatever standards and morals we think
we should follow, and pick up the standards and morals that He has laid out in
His Word. In short: we can’t be okay with sin anymore.
Sin is not of
God. It cannot be in His presence in heaven. He is pure and holy, and sin is
everything He is not. This is why we must be saved in order to enter in His
presence. Are we going to be perfect? Nope. We are still human, and we will
likely mess up very often. But we can strive to be perfect and holy as He is
holy. We should strive to be perfect
and holy as He is holy. The beautiful thing is, when we mess up, He is quick to
forgive us if we confess that sin to Him. He picks us up, brushes our knees
off, and we keep on walking with Him. Our hearts are covered with His blood,
and our sins are forgiven. But we have to actually make a conscious effort to
not live in sin.
We can’t look at
the forbidden fruit, and think to ourselves “it’s okay, He’ll forgive me” and
then take a bite. And then continue to take bite after bite while saying to
ourselves, “Jesus loves me! No one can judge me for my behavior!” We have to
consistently keep our guard up and be in constant communion with our Savior so
that our feet do not stray from His path.
And let me be
honest: it can be really hard. It will be difficult to fight against what our
flesh wants. It will be difficult to choose His way over our own. We will
engage in a constant battle against what we want to do and what we should do as
long as we are breathing, but through Him we can prevail over sin.
How do we know
what sin is? After all, it’s pretty hard to strive for holiness when we don’t
know what holiness actually is. That is why God’s Word is so important to us.
His Word contains everything we need to walk with Him. He also sent His Holy
Spirit to us to lead us and guide us. The Holy Spirit is our constant comforter
and friend. He is quick to convict us when our hearts go astray, we just have
to know His voice and be listening for it.
Please
understand, this post is not me trying to parade how awesome I am or how much I
know about God. Truthfully, I feel like this post is pretty sucky and that I am
doing a terrible job explaining this to you. At the end of the day though, I
want you to have an understanding of who Jesus is and what following Him means…..not
because I want to heap condemnation on your head, but because I want you to
find Him and experience His freedom. At the very least, I want you to
understand that the Jesus who gets paraded around on social media as being lax
about sin isn’t the real thing. Chasing after our sinful desires will only
leave us feeling empty and useless, but chasing after God’s heart will bring us
more fulfillment and joy than you can ever imagine.
So if you ever
see me post something on Facebook that goes against your current behavior or
thought pattern, please know that I’m not being hateful towards you. I
desperately want you to see the light of Christ….so that you can turn from your
sin and be saved from it.
Jesus loves you
for who you are, but if you are living in sin you are still lost and on your
way to hell. I know it’s harsh, and it may not feel like it’s fair, but it’s
the truth. He’s calling out to your heart…..will you listen?
“For all have sinned and fall short of
the glory of God.” ~Romans 3:23
“What shall we say then? Are we to
continue in sin that grace may abound? By no means! How can we who died to sin
still live in it? Do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into
Christ Jesus were baptized into His death? We were buried therefore with Him by
baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by
the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.” ~Romans 6:1-4
“I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by
the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and
acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this
world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may
discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”
Romans 12:1-2
Friday, May 16, 2014
Manifesto
There is a
poison in the church today.
On the surface, it sounds and feels wonderful. I can live my life the way I want to and no one can tell me when I’m doing wrong. God is the only judge of my soul and so as long as I feel like He is happy with me, then no one can tell me differently. How wonderful! This means I can now do whatever I feel like doing as long as I feel like me and God are “cool.” After all, He loves me just the way I am so I have nothing to worry about. What does it matter what you think?
Wake up from you poison-induced sleep, Church. We have work to do.
“Run to and fro through the streets of Jerusalem, look and take note! Search her squares to see if you can find a man, one who does justice and seeks truth, that I may pardon her. Though they say, ‘As the Lord lives’ yet they swear falsely. O Lord, do not Your eyes look for truth? You have struck them down, but they felt no anguish; You have consumed them, but they refused to take correction. They have made their faces harder than rock; they have refused to repent. Then I said, ‘These are only the poor; they have no sense; for they do not know the way of the Lord, the justice of their God. I will go to the great and will speak to them, for they know the way of the Lord, the justice of their God.’ But they all alike had broken the yoke; they had burst the bonds.” ~Jeremiah 5: 1-5
It has been
there for a long time, but its growth has exploded within the last decade.
It is a pretty
poison…..one that looks beautiful and smells wonderful. It beckons you to come
and taste and then it lulls you into a deep sleep. It slowly strips away your
senses in your slumber so that when you awaken, you are now dead to truth. You are changed, but you won’t even realize it.
These poisoned
believers look fine on the surface: they go to church, they profess to believe
in Christ, they might even wear some Christian t-shirts out in public. It is
when they open their mouths to speak that you can smell the sweet poison on
their breath. Pay close attention, but don’t get drawn in with this pretty
poison that feels so right.
This poison can
be deadly to your soul. If it goes unchecked, it will grow and grow until it
chokes out any raw, untouched Christianity that is left in your heart. But the
good news is you can be redeemed. Christ can overcome any poison distributed by
the enemy, you just have to listen to Truth and allow that Truth to set you
free. Allow me to sprinkle a little Truth on your soul today. I pray that you
are still awake enough to see through the fog and recognize God’s call to repentance.
Let’s start with
the first indicators that you’ve drunk the poison. These are statements that I
see the most online:
-
No one can tell me how to live my life.
- You have no right to tell me ______________.
- You can’t speak out against sin because Jesus said to love everyone and don’t judge. Only He can judge.
On the surface, it sounds and feels wonderful. I can live my life the way I want to and no one can tell me when I’m doing wrong. God is the only judge of my soul and so as long as I feel like He is happy with me, then no one can tell me differently. How wonderful! This means I can now do whatever I feel like doing as long as I feel like me and God are “cool.” After all, He loves me just the way I am so I have nothing to worry about. What does it matter what you think?
Mmmmm. How
dangerous. Do you notice my emphasis on the word “feel?” Has anyone ever told
you that your heart will lie to you? That you shouldn’t just trust your feelings?
This poison
loves to use your feelings against you. It will trick you into believing that
your relationship with God feels like it is in great shape and that God is “blessing”
you with all of the things that are going right in your life. And surprisingly,
a lot of things are going right in your life! You have a great boyfriend and
the two of you are buying a house together. You just graduated college and
landed an awesome job. Praise God for all of His blessings on your life! And
when bad things do happen, you just hold onto that promise that God won’t ever
give you anything you can’t handle and tell that devil to get out of your life.
After all, you know that God has more blessings of prosperity coming your way,
so if you can just persevere a little bit longer your blessing will be right around
the corner.
I know, I know,
this post is not going to make me any friends. But every time I get online and
see this web of lies choking my friends’ hearts, the burden to write this post
continues to grow. Please tell me, you can see the web of lies, right?
The truth is, if you are living a life of
sin, God isn’t blessing you. He’s not okay with you going to church on Sunday
and talking about how great He is, while you are living with your boyfriend. He’s
not nonchalant about your regular routine of drunkenness. He’s not overlooking
your constant use of profanity and brushing it off. So why are things going
good in your life? Because you drank the poison and believed the lie. Remember?
The poison looks and smells wonderful. Therefore, your life will look and smell
wonderful too.
The truth is, some of those bad things that
happen in your life might be God trying to shake you awake. He wants you to
wake up and realize your dependence on Him. He wants to slap that cup of poison
from your lips and replace it with the cup of His truth. He wants to chase away that
cloud of demons that swirl around your mind so He can speak clear words deep into
your soul. The truth is, He often
uses His people as His mouthpiece….but He is a gentleman, so He is not going to
make you listen.
Next time
someone points out sin in your life, how about you try listening rather than
sticking your fingers in your ears and shouting “don’t tell me how to live my
life!” Next time someone brings up a socially controversial topic, don’t just
drive over them while screaming “you can’t judge!”
Just stay calm
and listen. Listen and think. Think and then compare their words with Scripture.
And not just one verse out of the Bible that seems to prove your point and not
theirs. Really dig in and research
it. Evaluate it. Chew on it. Pray over it. Ask God to give you discernment over
it. But whatever you do, don’t allow your feelings
to be the deciding factor. Remember, feelings lie. And if you decide, through
prayer and thorough study of Scripture, that you are in fact right and they are
wrong, present your case with truths from God’s Word in a respectful manner.
There is a
poison in the church today…..but we are not powerless. We have the only tool
that can be used to defeat poison: the truth
of God’s Word.
Church, there is
a scary movement happening. If you don’t see it, then you are either a part of
it or your head is in the sand. This whole idea that we shouldn’t be calling
out sin in our society….this idea that we have no right to correct one another
when we stray into the wilderness of sin. This idea that God love us, so as
long as we feel like He is happy with us, then we are free to do what we want.
This idea that hell is only temporary and one day the people there will be
saved as well. This idea that most people won’t even go to hell because they
are “good people.” This idea that God is cool with homosexuality because Jesus
didn’t ever specifically say “don’t be gay.” This idea that we should just be
quiet and not judge because we have no right to. This idea that we can profess
whatever religion we want because Allah and Buddha are the same as Christ.
It is all
rubbish. All of it. Every bit. Lies. If you aren’t sure, then you aren’t
reading your Bible…..or you’re only reading the parts that make you feel good.
We cannot ignore the God of the Old Testament. We cannot ignore the letters to
the seven churches in Revelation. We cannot ignore the fact that the entire
early church was severely persecuted for following Christ, and that our belief in Christ will cost us something too. We have to dig deep
into the power of God’s Word and start putting on our armor. We have sat still
for far too long, and in our rest we have grown lazy towards His truth.
I know, it
would be a lot easier if we just followed the movement. If we just kept our
thoughts to ourselves and let people do what they want. If we never spoke out
in the name of justice. The arguments of the poison are much more comfortable
than the boldness of His truth. I know, because I've been tempted by the same poison as you. But we cannot
stand on the fence with sin. Either we pick up our cross and follow Him, or
continue to sit on the sidewalk and draw pretty pictures with our chalk.
The time is
coming soon when we will have to choose.
The truth is, He died so He could set us
free from this poison. But if we aren’t willing to stand up against the enemy
and fight for what is right, if we aren’t willing to turn from sin and follow
Christ, then all of this was in vein:
Wake up from you poison-induced sleep, Church. We have work to do.
“Run to and fro through the streets of Jerusalem, look and take note! Search her squares to see if you can find a man, one who does justice and seeks truth, that I may pardon her. Though they say, ‘As the Lord lives’ yet they swear falsely. O Lord, do not Your eyes look for truth? You have struck them down, but they felt no anguish; You have consumed them, but they refused to take correction. They have made their faces harder than rock; they have refused to repent. Then I said, ‘These are only the poor; they have no sense; for they do not know the way of the Lord, the justice of their God. I will go to the great and will speak to them, for they know the way of the Lord, the justice of their God.’ But they all alike had broken the yoke; they had burst the bonds.” ~Jeremiah 5: 1-5
“I know your works:
you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So,
because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My
mouth. For you say, I am rich, I have prospered, and I need nothing, not
realizing that you are wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked. I counsel
you to buy from Me gold refined by fire, so that you may be rich, and white
garments so that you may clothe yourself and the shame of your nakedness may
not be seen, and salve to anoint your eyes, so that you may see. Those whom I
love, I reprove and discipline, so be zealous and repent. Behold, I stand at
the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in
to him and eat with him, and he with Me. The one who conquers, I will grant him
to sit with Me on my throne, as I also conquered and sat down with My Father on
His throne. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the
churches.” ~Revelation 3: 15-22
“Do not think that I
have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a
sword.” ~Matthew 10:34
“Then they will
deliver you up to tribulation and put you to death, and you will be hated by
all nations for My name’s sake. And then many will fall away and betray one
another and hate one another. And many false prophets will arise and lead many
astray. And because lawlessness will be increased, the love of many will grow
cold. But the one who endures to the end will be saved.” Matthew 24:9-13
Thursday, May 15, 2014
And Now You Know the Rest of the Story..... (Part Two)
Tuesday, we left
off with our story in the month of March. (If you missed it, you might want to
catch up so you’re not lost. You can click here to go to the post.)
March was the
hardest month for me. I’ve said it before only a few times, but infertility
wrecked my faith. I really didn’t know how to trust God anymore. I knew that I should trust Him. I knew deep down that
He was faithful, but the constant disappointment from infertility I was so
familiar with the last eighteen months had all but destroyed me. When I got a
job offer before Roman did, I was afraid to make a move. In an instance, all of
the confidence and peace I had felt about our move had vanished and I was left
with all of the tiny questions that had suddenly become mountains in my mind.
What about Roman’s
job? Where would we move? Can we afford to move? What about my friends? What
about Roman’s job? What about our church? What
about Roman’s job?
I hesitantly
called the human resource specialist back the next afternoon with my answer: I
would take the job, but I couldn’t start until the end of April. I told her
that my husband and I would have to move and we would need the time to find a
place to live and get to Columbus. Truthfully, I was just trying to push my
start date out as far as possible to give Roman’s job offer more time. For the
next five weeks, we would wait in intense anticipation.
We went house hunting
one last time at the beginning of April. We tried to be as transparent as we
could with the landlords we met. We carefully explained that I had a job offer
and that he was in the final stages of a job offer. Once he had a job offer we
would need to move right away. We selected a house and the landlord told us he
would hold it for one week. We fully expected God to “wrap things up” and for
Roman to get a job offer that week. We were not comfortable with signing a
lease for a house without his job offer.
That week, Roman’s
dad had a God-orchestrated encounter with someone who knew the status of Roman’s
job. According to this individual, Roman had been selected and they were just
waiting on a few things to clear up before he got a job offer. We were greatly
encouraged, and I finally decided to officially announce to my boss that we
were leaving. Our week went by with no job offer. Not wanting to lose the
house, we told the landlord that we would meet with him the next weekend and
sign the lease and deliver the security deposit. Surely God would work
everything out by then! And oh yea, I had two weeks before I was supposed to
start my new job. We started packing our house up out of pure faith.
At first, we
were adamant about not signing a lease without a job offer. How in the world
could we hand over the entire contents of our savings account and hold ourselves
legally liable on a rental contract with no job offer for Roman? There was no
way we could afford the higher rent without him having a job! But eventually,
we decided that this was just going to have to be a leap of faith. It took all
of my energy to stand on what I felt God had been saying all along: move to
Columbus. I was so used to disappointments and being angry and doubtful towards
God. It was almost as though I could feel those flames of refinement in my
heart.
So that next weekend,
we took a deep breath and jumped off the cliff. We signed the lease and handed
over a cashier’s check that had emptied our savings account. My job threw me a
going away party. Roman put in his notice at his job. We rented a U-Haul, and
we moved that week.
The almost month
since then has been an emotional and spiritual roller coaster. We took our leap
of faith and moved to Columbus. I started my new job, and it has been great. We’ve
gone through the month of May with only my paycheck, the going-away gift from
our church, and the reimbursed security deposit from our last rental. I’ve
spent the last month looking at our budget and looking at our accounts and then
looking at God. “We can’t go on like this for another month.” Roman started
looking at part-time job announcements in the area, but said none of them felt
right. We had been telling every new person we met that he was in the “final
stages of a job offer” and would be starting soon, but the truth was that we
really weren’t sure. Maybe God wanted us in Columbus, but didn’t want Roman in
that job? We tried our best to just trust Him and not doubt…..but it was hard.
Really, really hard.
But finally, oh
happy day, Roman got his job offer this past Thursday! It took everything in me
to not scream when he called me at work to tell me the news. I don’t think I
could ever describe to you the feeling of relief I had as soon as he called. To
finally have our faith made sight in this part of our journey is an incredible
experience.
Truth is, the
past six months has been a crazy adventure, but now that this part of the story
has ended I can say with confidence that I wouldn’t have had it any other way.
Because the last six months has restored a part of me that I thought infertility
had stolen forever: my faith in God. I can recall the times I heard God’s
voice, and I can look back over the puzzle and see how He was faithful and true
to His word. I can see how shallow my doubts were in light of His promises. And
I can now look to the future and say with confidence that I will trust the Lord
to guide my steps in the way they should go.
This part of our
adventure has ended, but the next part is just beginning. I can’t wait to see
what happens next!
“He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out
of the mud and mire; He set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to
stand.” ~Psalm 40:2
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
And Now You Know the Rest of the Story..... (Part One)
Almost a month
ago, we announced our move to Columbus. I promised you in this post the full story, but I had to wait until we actually knew the full story
before I could tell it. As of last Thursday, the final piece of the puzzle finally fell into place, so I can finally tell you guys how this move of
ours came about. Yippee!
Right before
Thanksgiving 2013, Roman found a job announcement online for a forensic
scientist job. (I won’t go into any further details on what the job is, just
because I’m slightly leery about posting it for the world to see. So we’ll just
say it’s a forensic scientist job, cool? Cool.) For those of you who don’t
know, Roman majored in forensic science in college but had so far been unable
to find a job in his field. So about three months after graduating college, he
took a full-time job selling phones through a Verizon wireless retailer.
Trying to get a
job in the forensic science community proved a lot more difficult than what we
had expected. Going into marriage, we had a plan: graduate from college, Roman
gets a job in his career field, I quit my job and be a stay-at-home mom, we
live in Camilla and stay on the ministry team at our church, and everyone lives
happily ever after. We graduated college in May of 2012, but nothing else from
our plan was falling into place. We just weren’t getting anywhere with the few
forensic science jobs that became available in the Camilla area.
So when Roman found
the forensic scientist job this past November, we asked ourselves a scary
question: What if God doesn’t want us to stay in Camilla? What if He wants us
to move somewhere else? We decided that was a possibility but would never know
unless he applied, so Roman submitted his application and we started praying
really hard.
It was very
strange, because the longer we prayed about it, the more at peace we felt about
it. By the time Christmas rolled around, we were almost positive that God
wanted us to move…which was really odd because Roman hadn’t even heard anything
back yet! We even drove up there one Saturday and checked out the area where he
would be working and some of the surrounding neighborhoods.
Sure enough,
Roman got a phone call in January to set up an interview. We were ridiculously
excited! This was the closest we had ever come in his career pursuit! I took
the day off and we drove up to Columbus the night before. His interview went very well and as soon as I picked him up
I blurted out, “We’re moving to Columbus!!” We spent the afternoon looking at
houses and I immediately started applying for federal government jobs in the
area. Within a few days, a job came up and I felt God telling me to apply.
February came
with lots of great news: Roman had made it into the next stage of the hiring
process. It was him and two other individuals, and he was now required to do
the extensive background investigation and a polygraph. In addition, I was
selected for an interview for the job that I had applied for the month before.
I was nervous, but I felt God telling me that the job was already mine, so
there was a lot of peace at the same time.
Up until
February we were feeling nothing but excitement and confidence. As we explained
to some of our family and friends: if this couple who always said they were
never leaving Camilla are at peace with moving to Columbus, then that peace is
only coming from God. We were really excited about the future and what God was
doing. In the back of our minds, all the questions about the tiny details were
still there…but they were small in comparison. Our feelings were mixed with nervousness,
peace and excitement, but mostly peace and excitement. March changed all of
that……
In early March,
I got a tentative job offer. At first I was beyond excited, but reality quickly
set in. Roman had not heard anything yet about his job. What do we do? I
strongly felt like this was God saying that we were meant to move to Columbus
even though Roman hadn’t heard anything yet, but I really did not want to be
wrong and accept a job offer that I wasn’t supposed to take. I stalled as long
as possible on my paperwork that I had to fill out before a firm job offer
could be made. Then I stalled as long as possible on getting my background
investigation and fingerprinting complete. But even after all that stalling, I
got a phone call immediately after my fingerprints were taken with a firm job
offer. I told the human resource specialist that I would need to talk to my
husband and I’d call her back in the morning. Roman immediately called the
human resource specialist and asked for a status on his job….they had none to
offer him.
Our time of
intense anxiety had begun.
Come back
Thursday to hear the rest of the story!
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’
declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you
a hope and a future.’” ~Jeremiah 29:11
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Throwback Thursday Stories: Mean, Green, Soccer-Playing Machine
Today we are participating in The Mom Creative's Throwback Thursday Stories! Every Thursday she posts a throwback picture and tells the story behind it, and then has a link-up at the bottom of the post for others to share their stories too! If you enjoy today's post and would like to see more, feel free to click over to her post and check out more stories by clicking here. If you are a new reader from The Mom Creative, welcome! Feel free to click around, we are glad you're here. :)
My older brother was an awesome soccer player. He wound up getting a scholarship because of his athletic ability, so naturally, when I was a little girl my parents enrolled me in the local recreation department's soccer program. My nephew and little brother were both enrolled in the same team as me, so we had tons of fun doing soccer-things together.....like daring each other to eat grass and throwing dirt at each other (the grass tasted weird, if you were wondering.)
I am relatively certain that for the first two seasons I did nothing but dance in circles, pick flowers and sing throughout every practice and game. I seem to remember my Dad lovingly shouting across the field: "Sarah, put down the flower and kick the ball." I am almost positive that I did not listen to him. Because flowers.
Due to my amazing soccer/dancing abilities, my parents also enrolled me in ballet.....where I pretended to crawl on the floor like a lion anytime they played a Lion King song. *ahem*
Eventually I did get serious about playing soccer though. Maybe a little too serious.
My older brother was an awesome soccer player. He wound up getting a scholarship because of his athletic ability, so naturally, when I was a little girl my parents enrolled me in the local recreation department's soccer program. My nephew and little brother were both enrolled in the same team as me, so we had tons of fun doing soccer-things together.....like daring each other to eat grass and throwing dirt at each other (the grass tasted weird, if you were wondering.)
I am relatively certain that for the first two seasons I did nothing but dance in circles, pick flowers and sing throughout every practice and game. I seem to remember my Dad lovingly shouting across the field: "Sarah, put down the flower and kick the ball." I am almost positive that I did not listen to him. Because flowers.
Due to my amazing soccer/dancing abilities, my parents also enrolled me in ballet.....where I pretended to crawl on the floor like a lion anytime they played a Lion King song. *ahem*
Eventually I did get serious about playing soccer though. Maybe a little too serious.
I want you all to know that my mom has both of these pictures on her fridge. It never fails, anytime we have a large gathering at her house someone has to bring up my face in this picture.
Listen guys, the photographer told me to look like a mean, green, soccer-playing machine. So I was a good little girl and did exactly what he told me. I'm good at following orders! ;) That phrase also caught on really well too, so I repeated probably a million times that I was a mean, green, soccer-playing machine over the rest of the season.
But in all seriousness, my childhood soccer teams hold some of my best memories. It was so awesome to play on a team with both my nephew and my little brother. My Dad and older brother even volunteered as coaches one year, which was awesome. As I grew up and continued playing I discovered my love of running, which led me to my extensive running career throughout middle school and high school. So Dad, I suppose all the money you paid so I could dance and pick flowers on the soccer field was worth it! ;)
And for the record, I still consider myself a mean, green, soccer-playing machine. I just don't wear the pigtails anymore. :)
“Like newborn babies, crave pure
spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you
have tasted that the Lord is good.” ~1 Peter 2:2-3
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Tuesday, May 6, 2014
DaySpring Specials
I wasn't planning on writing a post today, but I have a quick update that I would like to share with all of you. (Check over at Faith, Marriage & Family tomorrow for a new Wifey Wednesday post!)
As of today, I was approved to be an affiliate for DaySpring! I have always loved this company and the products they sell. I seriously can't look at their store with my wallet close by because they have so. much. cute. stuff. So I am really excited that I was approved to partner with them.
Periodically, I will do a short blog post letting you know what specials DaySpring is currently running. I will also have my affiliate links on the left side bar (if you are reading this on a mobile device, you may have to scroll down to the bottom and click "view full site" in order to see the side bar.) Feel free to click on any of the links or images in this post or the images in the left side bar to browse DaySpring's products. Just to make it clear, I will receive a small commission on any product that you might purchase when you click on one of the links on this blog.
So without further ado, here is your first DaySpring Specials post!
Right now, the Redeemed Collection of DaySpring has this really cute decorative lantern on sale. It's on sale for $12, regularly priced at $29.99.
Also, all Wedding & Anniversary Cards are currently 30% off--no coupon needed!
The Lyrics for Life Collection is one of my absolute favorite collections that DaySpring has to offer. They take popular lyrics from hymns and worship songs and place them on all sorts of stuff....mugs, gift bags, cards, and wall art. Right now, for every two items purchased you get one item free! I mean, just look at how cute this stuff is:
This is just a quick highlight of what they have to offer. If you would like to browse other collections, just click here or click on the image below to go to DaySpring's main page.
As of today, I was approved to be an affiliate for DaySpring! I have always loved this company and the products they sell. I seriously can't look at their store with my wallet close by because they have so. much. cute. stuff. So I am really excited that I was approved to partner with them.
Periodically, I will do a short blog post letting you know what specials DaySpring is currently running. I will also have my affiliate links on the left side bar (if you are reading this on a mobile device, you may have to scroll down to the bottom and click "view full site" in order to see the side bar.) Feel free to click on any of the links or images in this post or the images in the left side bar to browse DaySpring's products. Just to make it clear, I will receive a small commission on any product that you might purchase when you click on one of the links on this blog.
So without further ado, here is your first DaySpring Specials post!
Right now, the Redeemed Collection of DaySpring has this really cute decorative lantern on sale. It's on sale for $12, regularly priced at $29.99.
Also, all Wedding & Anniversary Cards are currently 30% off--no coupon needed!
The Lyrics for Life Collection is one of my absolute favorite collections that DaySpring has to offer. They take popular lyrics from hymns and worship songs and place them on all sorts of stuff....mugs, gift bags, cards, and wall art. Right now, for every two items purchased you get one item free! I mean, just look at how cute this stuff is:
This is just a quick highlight of what they have to offer. If you would like to browse other collections, just click here or click on the image below to go to DaySpring's main page.
Happy Tuesday everyone!
"Because of God's tender mercy, the
morning light from heaven is about to break upon us." ~Luke 1:78
Monday, May 5, 2014
Weekend Adventures
We had a really great time over the weekend. This weekend was our first weekend that we stayed at home since moving to Columbus, so we took the opportunity to get out and explore some. But not before we went back to Albany on Friday night to see my little brother graduate:
I can't tell you guys how proud I am of him for completing the Advanced EMT program! He is so good at what he does, and I know God is going to use him to save countless lives throughout his career! Congratulations Stephen!!!!!
We didn't spend a whole lot of time at the river, but we had a ton of fun! I can't wait to go back and do a picnic on the beach. And even though I always said I was too scared to ever try it, I'm kind of wanting to do the whitewater rafting course now!
After we ate dinner, we went to a concert in Columbus. The band Moore opened, and then we saw Tim Timmons, Group 1 Crew, and Big Daddy Weave. It was an AMAZING show and I could feel God's presence in the room. We actually wound up buying Tim Timmons' new CD. I didn't realize how great of a musician/performer he was. So far I've been listening to his CD on repeat....love it!
Graduation ceremony for Albany Technical Institute |
Me and my little brother |
The proud graduate! |
Going to Albany and back in one day was a little tiring, so we slept in on Saturday. But we finally pulled ourselves out of bed and decided to do some exploring this weekend! First, we went down to the Chattahoochee River and walked a portion of the riverwalk. For those of you who don't know, there is a fairly new whitewater rafting company in Columbus that has the longest urban whitewater rafting course in the nation! It was pretty cool to see some of the rafters come down the river. And there was a really cool spot along the riverwalk where you could go out on the rocks in the river or walk along the sandy "beach." Get ready for picture overload......
After we ate dinner, we went to a concert in Columbus. The band Moore opened, and then we saw Tim Timmons, Group 1 Crew, and Big Daddy Weave. It was an AMAZING show and I could feel God's presence in the room. We actually wound up buying Tim Timmons' new CD. I didn't realize how great of a musician/performer he was. So far I've been listening to his CD on repeat....love it!
Yesterday we decided to visit Evangel Temple for Sunday morning service. TIt was really good, but they had a guest speaker so we did not really get to hear the Pastor preach. We did attend their young adults ministry service last night and got to meet some cool people, so that was great.
So yea, a very fun-filled weekend for us! It was a nice start to our new life here in Columbus and it re-energized us for what God has planned for us here.
I hope you guys had a great weekend as well! Try not to be too sad about it being Monday, we've made it through half the work day already!! ;)
“Lift up your eyes on high and see: who
created these? He who brings out their host by number, calling them all by
name, by the greatness of His might, and because He is strong in power not one
is missing.” ~Isaiah 40:26
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Rhinestone Jesus: Saying Yes to God When Sparkly, Safe Faith Is No Longer Enough
I’m pretty
excited to share this post with all of my readers this morning!
Today is May 1st.
Today is also the day that Rhinestone
Jesus releases to retailers worldwide.
Kristen
Welch is the author behind one of my favorite blogs: We are THAT Family. In
2010, Kristen and her family founded The Mercy House, a maternity home in Kenya
that provides aid to pregnant girls living in extreme poverty. The Mercy House operates
off of the charity of “simple” people like us, yet God has continued to grow
this home exponentially. They are getting ready to move into a second home that
will allow them to bring in even more helpless Kenyan girls. As of last year, The Mercy House is home to 11
mothers and 11 babies. Rhinestone Jesus
is Kristen’s story of how she said “yes” to God, which led to the founding of
this life-changing ministry…..
“In high school, Kristen Welch wore a
big, sparkly rhinestone ‘Jesus’ pin to school every day and carried her Bible
wherever she went. (Yes, she was that girl.) But she didn’t realize her
faith, though sincere, was shallow; much like her artificial accessory, it
would one day tarnish, no longer a true fit for who she was. As real life
catapulted Kristen into places and situations she’d never imagined, there came
a day when she stood shocked in the slums of Africa and realized in one
desperate moment that Jesus wasn’t enough for her. At least . . . she wasn’t
living like He was. On the brink of a risk bigger than any she’d ever taken,
Kristen knew she didn’t stand a chance—unless she was willing to put aside the
rhinestones and get branded by the real thing. Rhinestone Jesus is the
story of one woman’s journey from comfortably living a safe, ‘good-girl’ faith
that didn’t cost much, to realizing that God was daring her to say yes to a
bolder, more authentic, more dangerous way. This story of spiritual adventure
throws the doors wide open for any woman who’s ever thought of herself as ‘just
a mom.’ Kristen will inspire and empower you to say yes to God right where you
are—and stand amazed at how your life will shine.”
I pre-ordered Rhinestone Jesus a few weeks ago and
received my copy in the mail last weekend. So far I am LOVING this book, which
is why I wanted to tell all of you about it. It is so easy for us to fall into
the mindset that what we do doesn’t really matter to God, but Kristen gently reminds
us through the telling of her story that all of our “yesses” to God truly do matter! Each of us can make a huge
impact in this world for Jesus Christ if we are simply willing to say “yes”
when He calls us! If you would
like to purchase this book, you can find it on Amazon here.
Note: this is not an affiliate link….I just really love this
book and wanted to tell all of you about it!
“He has told you, O man, what is good;
and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness,
and to walk humbly with your God.” ~Micah 6:8
Monday, April 28, 2014
Symballo
Last week we
finally officially announced our move to a new city on Life with the
Casterlines. So far the moving process has been relatively easy. Am I going to miss some folks at work? Yup. Am I
going to miss my nice, big country house? Yup. Am I going to miss seeing my family
whenever I want? Yup. But even though there are things I’m going to miss, all
of the good that I know God is going to bring about from this move has helped
me outweigh the sadness. I’ve been pretty proud of myself because I’ve been
able to hold all of the emotions together and not have a crying-fit. ;)
Until yesterday.
Yesterday was
our last Sunday as worship leaders at our church. Ever since Roman and I felt
like God was calling us away, we’ve tried to prep ourselves emotionally for
leaving our home church. I think we failed miserably at that. I didn’t even
make it through the worship set before I started crying. Looking over at the
worship team that we have led for around three years…..all of them friends so
close that I consider them my family (plus my father-in-law who actually is my
family)....gosh, I just couldn’t take it. Our praise team has such a special
connection. We operate so well within the moving of the Holy Spirit. We can
follow each other and feel where the music needs to go. It’s hard to put it
into words, but I can say that this connection and togetherness is not very
common among praise teams. I am going to miss being a part of such a wonderful
group of vocalists and musicians SO much. And so I cried….through like, the
entire third song.
I started
looking over our sweet congregation…and then I really lost it.
Y’all. If you
don’t know my church family, you should get to know them. You won’t find a
sweeter, more caring group of people who want to know Jesus more than anything.
Their worship is pure, genuine and fearless. Their love is strong and
unwavering. I have had the privilege of *attempting* to lead them in worship
for around three years, but to tell you the truth, they don’t need my help. To
be able to see them worshipping Jesus every week is a true blessing, one that I
am dearly going to miss.
Roman and I
truly had no idea that our church family was going to bless us like they did
yesterday. So basically, once the worship was over and I started crying again
because I realized our last set list together was officially over, I pretty
much didn’t stop crying until we started eating lunch. The slideshow was beautiful
and represented so many special memories of our journey at First Assembly. The
words spoken by some of our dearest friends and family truly touched our
hearts. I don’t think I’ve ever seen Roman cry in our entire relationship, so
for him to break down like he did during the service yesterday truly shows how
much it meant for him. The financial blessing was God’s way of providing for a
great need in our lives right now, and we can’t be more thankful. It was an
all-around beautiful service and we were emotional wrecks for like, the entire
rest of the day.
My devotion last
night was perfect for yesterday. The passage was out of Luke 2, and the focus
was on verse 19: “But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in
her heart.” The original translation for the word “pondered”
in this passage of Scripture is “symballo” and it means “to bring together.”
Mary took the events leading up to Jesus’ birth and the immediate events with
the shepherds afterwards and “brought them together” in her mind. She pieced
together all of the wondrous works of God and treasured them, because she knew
she was holding the Messiah in her arms. The devotion ended with a challenge:
spend some time reviewing over the last several years in your life. What major
events has God brought you through that have shaped you into who you are today?
“Ponder” them for a moment. And so last night, as I read my devotion and got
ready for bed, I did just that.
When
I review the last six years of my life, I can see the hand of God all over. I
see a broken girl graduating from high school with more questions than she can
count and a hardened heart towards God. I see this girl going back to First
Assembly with all of her questions, insecurities, and doubts. I see a loving
church family who took her in and dedicated the time and energy to shape her
into who she is today. I see the best pastor and pastor’s wife in the world patiently mold her into a
leader. I see friends that will last a lifetime entering into her life. I see
her getting married and a church body that has supported and counselled this
new marriage into what God wants it to be. I see her getting baptized in the
Holy Spirit. I see the boldness and courage of the Holy Spirit rise up in her
as she steps into leadership. I see a group of people who stood beside her,
encouraged her, and prayed for her every step of the way.
Symballo.
Stepping
down as worship leaders and making that final “break” yesterday was truly the
hardest thing we’ve ever had to do. I cried on and off for the rest of the day….and
this morning….and I’ll probably cry tomorrow too….and probably the day after
that. So much of my life and who I am today rests on the beautiful congregation
we left behind yesterday and their willingness to follow Christ. There truly
are not enough words that I can write on this blog that could ever convey my
gratitude for this body of believers.
So
to the dear people of First Assembly: We love you more than we can express.
Thank you so much for being who you are…for being who God called you to be.
Continue worshipping our Lord and Savior and seeking after His heart. Don’t
stop running this race! Keep your eyes focused on Christ and the work He has
called you to. We can’t wait to hear about all that God does through you, and
we can’t wait to share everything He does through us as well. Know that this
certainly is not goodbye; after all, we are only two hours away! ;) Thank you SO much for such a sweet service yesterday,
it meant a lot to both of us (even though I cried too much.)
And
to anyone else reading this who is not a member of First Assembly: seriously,
you should get to know those folks. If this post hasn’t convinced you, then I
don’t know what will!
I’ll
close with Romans 12 because it accurately represents everything that my First
Assembly family is, and everything we are called to be as a body of believers
in Christ:
“Therefore, I urge you, brothers and
sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy
and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the
pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then
you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—His good, pleasing and
perfect will. For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think
of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober
judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. For
just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all
have the same function, so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each
member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the
grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in
accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is
teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is
giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to
show mercy, do it cheerfully. Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to
what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above
yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual
fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in
prayer. Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those
who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do
not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not
be conceited. Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do
what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends
on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but
leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: ‘It is mine to avenge; I will
repay,’ says the Lord. On the contrary: ‘If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if
he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap
burning coals on his head.’ Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome
evil with good.”
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